Assalamualaikum
Hi.
Before I started working, I categorise guys in 2 ways.
Stranger or close friend
Yes, it is that extreme. To be honest, there really was no one in between. No one that I even consider normal friend.
It was never a problem when I was in high school or in uni because really, they too, can't be bothered about me. Looking back, I think majority of them don't even know I existed. twenty years down the road, it will be my picture they'll point at on our annual Majalah Maktab and go "Eh siapa ni? did she goes to our school?? really?"
#sadreality
However, they'll still be minority of them who'll go, "Eh ni Athirah la. Budak kelas 5B3 tu,".
Actually, I don't really care about the majority. They don't even know me and I am not the type to go to people and go "Eh, kau xxx kan? Aku Athirah laaa,"
I am more scared of this minority...... because they've seen me before. They know my name.
They consider me acquaintance when to me, they are practically strangers.
The other day, I met a stranger friend back in high school.....in a lift....with no place to escape.
I was forced to face the thing I fear most sooner than I'd expected.
:o
well, to be completely honest, I've seen the guy before. I know he works in the same building but normally, I'll either turn my back against him or choose the traditional way, RUNNNNNNNN! but this time, we're in a lift!!!! where can I run?
I remember praying the whole time that he'll never notice me but he did. Even then, I pretended not to see him.
WHY DID EVERYONE HAS TO PRESS EVERY FREAKING FLOOR? CAN'T A GIRL GO TO HER FLOOR FIRST? HELLO WHERE'S YOUR MANNER? LADIES FIRST OKAY. ESPECIALLY A LADY IN A HURRY.
People went out of the lift one-by-one until at one point, the lift was almost empty. By this time, I had to be blind if I still want to pretend not to see him. (considered that option but explaining how I go blind is much more troublesome than coming clean)
I may be weird but I am not rude. With a sigh, I turned to him and fake a sudden realisation for 2 seconds and go "Eh, xxx!"
We make small talks until I FINALLY reach my floor and we bid goodbye.
I was proud of my coolness.........for like a nano second. After that, my hands were shaking. My heart was thumping extremely fast. My face redden. My legs weaken.
That very short encounter I have with my stranger friend drained my energy!
This is a serious problem. Help me!!
p/s: For now, If I ignore you or you catch me running away from you, please don't hate me. I am not rude. I am just scared of people, in general, not you, exclusively.
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