Assalamualaikum
"Apa guna pakai tudung kalau nampak leher,"
"Apa guna baca Al-Quran tak faham maksud,"
"Amalan orang yang tidak menutup aurat tak akan diterima,"
"Dosa tidak akan terhapus walaupun dah Qada solat,"
"Solat dihujung waktu tak diterima,"
"Munafiknya cakap pasal benda2 islamic tapi diri sendiri tak praktikkan,"
"Solat yang paling berat untuk orang munafik adalah solat Isyak dan Subuh,"
On the road to repentance, these words don't help much right? In fact, these might scare people off. I mean, what's the point of me repenting if my past sins will never ever be forgiven? and how can I be a perfect muslim when I basically start from zero? Dari tak pernah baca Quran tiba-tiba wah sehari satu surah. Dari tak pernah solat tiba-tiba wah, buat solat fardhu dan solat sunat terus. Tak logiknyaaa.
It's okay if all we can do now is dress modestly without wearing the scarf.
It's okay if all we can do now is just wear a scarf without an inner.
It's okay if all we can do now is one solat fardhu in a day.
It's okay if all we can do now is combo-ing our solats.
It's okay if all we can do now is read one Quran's ayah per day.
It's okay if all we can do now is fast half of the compulsory month.
As long as we do it consistently.
Who knows, this month we prayed Subuh consistently, next month we add Zuhur, in a year, we might succeed with keeping all of them in check, Insyaallah.
And it's okay if we fall back to being our old selves. We're all humans, humans will make mistakes. Each time, get back up, dust it off, and move on. There's no point beating ourselves up over something we can't change, our past. Learn from it and move on.
"Tapi kadang kadang, jatuh tu lagi teruk dari mula2 start. Macam mula dekat 0, dah improve sampai 50, tiba tiba jatuh sampai -40 pulak. Penat ah macam ni,"
It's okay, don't give up. Get back up, dust it off, and move on. Know that Allah appreciates all kind of efforts, small, inconsistent, hangat-hangat tahi ayam, He recognised them all.
[Disclaimer]
I am not normalising sin. What's wrong is wrong. But what I am preaching in this post is that don't be so quick to judge. We don't understand's everyone's struggle. Some people are used to a certain lifestyle, it'll take huge effort to change.
For example, someone who has been wearing the hijab since forever might not understand new hijabis struggle. Like how come they can wear a hijab but still show their neck? Sis, that sister has been living her whole life without the hijab, they have been showing their neck their whole life, it's not really a big deal for them? but for someone who's been wearing it since forever, you'll freak out over one strand of hair peeking through. Why? Because you're not used to showing it off, covering up is natural to you. Getting you to show your neck is as hard as getting new hijabis to cover it up, because both has been so used to their lifestyle. It took effort to change a lifestyle, so, be kind always <3
Plus, who are we to judge anyone's relationship with God? That's really personal. Who are we to say that "your deeds are not accepted because you do this and this," only God knows what He accept and don't accept. While He did say don't do this and this, berdosa, He, The Most Merciful, also come out with these rules,
"Puasa di bulan Ramadhan plus puasa 6 hari di bulan Syawal adalah bersamaan dengan berpuasa sepanjang masa,"
"Apa sahaja yang kita mintak di sepertiga malam akan dikabulkan,"
"Wuduk mengeluarkan dosa dari jasad,"
"Seorang pelacur masuk syurga sebab bagi anjing minum,"
"Sakit menghapuskan dosa,"
"Zikir menghapuskan dosa sebanyak buih lautan,"
Me, a normal struggling slave, struggle with the calculation. I mean, I wanted to do Y and Y, but X says this and this, how can I keep track with transactions in my Akhirah account? Once, My non muslim colleague D, asked me, "Macam mana nak tahu pahala you dah cukup?" No one knows. God is the only one who's keeping the tab. That's why we have to keep doing good no matter how bad we fall, because as long as we keep doing that, we'll continue to have good faith in Allah, that He'll forgive us, always, as long as we keep asking. Baik kan Tuhan kita? #bodek
But of course, Islam is not a religion to wat lek wat peace je ye. Those reminders on the hellfire are true too. Keep repenting, keep trying to improve, may Allah make it easy for all of us, amin.
