I'LL MEET YOU SOMEDAY

I recently went to a FT Island concert and it was awesome!

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ok this is so random but hi blog! Can't believe this is how I return haha. I have another post dedicated to me returning to the this space, but wth, my life is as messy as this gets so whatdupp.

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Returning back to the topic, it's been 2 days and I am still here, stuck in this emotional space still have not move on from the high I felt throughout the concert...and to think that I almost did not go...because it was a standing zone ticket, which I thought my 34 year old body can't cope, but heyyy, I survive! 

Hongki’s amazing as always. He is the CD! I've been to many concerts, but seriously, his voice is truly one of a kind. Ada satu moment lawak ni, there was this girl standing beside me, we're stranger to each other, but during Wind, we were so drunk with emotion, we hold hands! #tiber 

Speaking of Wind, that's the song that prompted this blogpost actually. Listening to it again, in 2024, I cry. haha. I don't know where to begin. So many things happened in the past 3 years I was not blogging, I have stop hoping for things, and when we're not hoping, we're not expecting, and when we don't expect, what's the point of anything? I self pronounce that I am officially dead inside.

However, listening to Wind, in Hongki's voice, makes me feel things! Mostly sad, and longing, but hey, it's a start. I am not entirely a lost cause.

Where are you? You left everything to me 

I’m looking for you

Sometimes, please think about me

Even if I’m not there 

I’ll find you and be there 

After wiping out these tears 

I will go, I will find 

I’ll meet you someday 

Even if my body is broken down by a cold wind 

Always

It's not any man from the past I am missing. I miss myself. 😢 I really really do. I am on way, I promise.

I'LL MEET YOU SOMEDAY

Thursday, February 29, 2024

Sheila On 7 in da house yall

Assalamualaikum

[10 February 2018] It was a normal Saturday...no it's not. It's the Saturday I met Sheila on 7!!!!!!

It was supposed to be just me and Ayu but Alya decided to join later that Friday. Thankfully ya amat weeeehhhhhh. If not, I would be alone to face then bad mood Ayu because we reached the venue late! This is so not me because unless I wanted to be late, I always almost on time to everything but that day, damn was I super late and thankfully though, Alya reached much later than I was. :P When we finally united with Ayu after the longgggg queue, we quickly said sorry (act cute and everything) but she was still very sullen about the whole scenario. Alya and I just quietly tailed her wherever she went. Luckily, she took the higher road and started to talk to us in the event hall. phewh!

The concert was great. Duta is still handsome and energetic as always. His voice is still as powerful as his younger self, all in all, we had a great time. It was fun singing along to the songs we grew up with like Dan, Sephia, Melompat Lebih Tinggi, Berhenti Berharap, Hari Bersamanya and manyyyyy more! It felt like I hopped on a time machine and were back to the early 2000. Needless to say, I'd recharged quite well that day. Thanks SO7! Come again to Malaysia!

Having said all that, Alya, a concert virgin, told us why she shy away from concerts before, she said, the whole wild setting makes her uncomfortable. The only reason she decided to go to Sheila On 7 ones was because they are from Indonesia, how wild could it be.

Well, I had similar concern before. What I can say for now, as a slightly conservative muslim, I would suggest you to go with your same gender friends only, meaning if you are a girl, go with girls only and vice versa. Why am I saying this? Because I've seen too many mix group of muslim friends that started the concert conservatively, maintaining their halal gap and all, started to hug each other halfway, and by the end of the concert, they were already kissing each others cheek. I'm not judging. I know for a fact that loud musics, low lights combined with adrenaline do that to people. In that moment, everything feels right. However, this is just my opinion and for now, I don't trust myself enough to go with mix group. If you can control yourself who am I to say otherwise? :P

Sheila On 7 in da house yall

Friday, May 25, 2018

If only someone cared

Assalammualaikum

So, Jonghyun committed suicide. I would lie if I were to say this does not affect me at all. I am not a Shinee fan, but I know Jonghyun because his name is always there together with GD whenever there is an article about list of idols with extra talent. Emphasis on extra. When someone that rich, with so much talent, bright future to look forward to, committed suicide, you can't help but wonder, where and what went wrong.

His suicide note was depressing as well. It is not like he did not asked for help, he did, but....well, just read it for yourself. No wonder he felt alone. No wonder he felt like the world have fail him.

All he wanted was for someone to say he did a good job. He worked hard... T-T

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Side note: for my non k-pop fan readers, for you to empathise with the situation, I am going to tell you quickly about k-pop idols. To be a K-pop idol, one must train for God knows how many years on composing, dancing, singing, language, basically everything before they can debut and to debut, one must compete with hundreds of trainees for a spot in that 6 members idol group. Competition are fierce, chances are slim. They have to work really hard to survive. If they fail to debut by the time they're around 25, they have to find other jobs because obviously, this is not for them anymore and this also mean years of hard work and dedication account to nothing. Even if they do become idol, even if they debuted, major portion of their income will be deducted to repay back the company for all the training they gave previously. So now, the situation is, work so much but got paid pennies. It's not as glamorous as how we see it is.

It's no surprise that a lot of them see psychiatrist.

Depresion is real. Real real. Having fall into depression myself in 2015 and once again earlier this year, I understand how bad it is.This year one is much worst than 2015, I have to revert back the post I've published to draft because seriously, it's too dark I don't want it to become my legacy. Some snippets from that post,

"Why do growing up has to be this hard?

So what is the correlation with social media accounts then?

The thing is, I hate my life. I hate my reality. I hate that I have become materialistic. I hate that I can't move on. I hate that I am stubborn. I hate that I don't know how to save as a result leaving me dead poor. Most importantly, I hate myself.

and I believe, people who hate themselves don't deserve a social media account. Social media is for happy things, inspiring things, or even crazy fun things. I have none of that in my life right now. So bye social media, for now. "

Mine is the minor one....wait....scratch that...no depression is minor. That's our mistake. Just because the problem seems small to us, we treat it lightly...We are not in that person's shoes. We don't understand wholly how this affect that person. Each person feels things differently. So something that may seems so small to you is actually a serious problem to that other person. and when things like suicide happen, you wonder what happen...there were no signs you say.

There were signs...we just choose to ignore them.

Even in 13 reason why, the day that Hannah decided to commit suicide, she went to see her counselor! She wanted someone to stop her, to give her reason to live, to tell her everything will be okay...

Suicide can be stopped. If we just show that we care....but got to admit, that's hard to do too. Everyone is just so busy and self centered these days....no one has time to care, me included. what a scary world we live in.

One of the songs written by Jonghyun. Hope you find comfort in it.

If only someone cared

Friday, December 22, 2017

Tell Me It's Okay

Assalamualaikum

Remember the time when I told you that I'll never ever pay for a concert? I was of the opinion that it is a complete waste of money. Money I rather spend on ermmm handbag and shoes :P....well, those were the good days. Ain changes that or more accurately, Kodaline changes that. 

We went to this year Good Vibe Festival! Not gonna lie, I feel so wild with all those sexy fashion people, booze on their hand, dancing everywhere around me. Me, with my tudung and syariah compliance clothing, I feel so out of place...for a moment. The mood was so good it's impossible not to dance, awkward or not :P.

But I am not here to talk about Kodaline. I was there for Kodaline....the full hour...I even slightly hated the guy who proposed to his gf on the stage with The One playing as BGM...I mean come on, if this were 3 hours of Kodaline's concert, I probably wouldn't care but this is a freaking festival where Kodaline only have one hour to perform! And you took 15 minutes of that time for your own selfish memory, I am one upset fan.

 Enough about Kodaline.

I am writing today for Gnash, the one that I did not really pay attention to until much later this year, after the festival. Gnash was there, on the second day of the festival....which by this time, we, two unfit grandmas, were already tired from all those dancing we did on the first day...and we wanted to save our energy for Kodaline so we decided to skip all other singers and just go for Kodaline. -________- You are such a disappointment Athirah. We didn't know Gnash that well back then. All I know is he's the one that sing the ultimate breakup/one sided love song, I Hate You I Love You that's it. 

Much later, when I really decided to check Gnash out, he's actually pretty cool. He's like the western version of Zion T which is really really cool. His songs and lyrics is just so menusuk, confusing, so true, so real, like he's speaking on behalf of us all, us, the broken ones, the imperfect ones. This one person even commented on his youtube page, "Someone please report Gnash, he stole my diary,"

Take the ever so famous I Hate You I Love You for example. You hate a person but at the same time love that person so much you wish that person chooses you over that other person. How confusing is that? but that's us, the complicated ones.

This is the most confusing song I've ever listen to. If you don't know the song, can you listen to it first before you proceed?

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When I first heard the song, when he say "tell me it's okay," I thought what he meant was he wanted to move on, so he was sort of asking permission from that other person, is it okay for him to move on? please tell him it's okay...he found something new, wanted to be happy and the only way he can do that is to move on. 

Fast forward to now, when I hear this song again today, I hear it differently. Now, instead of to move on, I think what he really meant was he is on the verge to move on, but what he really wanted to do is to stay...he's asking that other person, to make the decision now, to tell him that it's okay to stay, it's okay to stay and fix this problematic relationship. The words tell me it's okay is like a promise from that other person, that she/he'll put in the effort too.

Lol.

This is me, always overthinking things. :P

Tell Me It's Okay

Sunday, December 17, 2017

Unnies Slamdunk debut stage

Assalamualaikum

In the beginning, I did not expect that I would be this into the show. I watch it nevertheless because of Minzy, my bias from 2NE1. I did not expect to love every single one of them unlike the first season where I have issues with Tiffany and Jinkyoung but in this 2nd season, even Jinkyoung I find is lovable! I love Jin Young lovey dovey relationship with Chae Young, I love Jinkyoung bickering with Sook and Somi and Minzy are just soo cute together.

Brief explanation: The show is about a group of woman working together to create a Kpop girl group. Most of them are not professional singer, so we'll be watching them learning how to sing, how to dance and eventually, debut as a girl group.

Last Friday was their debut. They perform Right? and Lalala Song. Right? camera work is just super off and as for Lalala Song, yes, I did notice the nervousness in their eyes...they are supeeeeeerrrrrr nervous. Especially during Lalala song. Did I think this could be better? hell yes! I mean, I've seen their practice rounds. They're capable to do this better. I wish they could just stop being nervous and just enjoy the whole performance. but things a better said than done. :P If it were me, I would froze too but I did not choose public figure as my career so phewwwhhh.

I really really wish they do better in other stages. I like them all too much to not have KBS continue this for the 3rd season!!! I have a really soft spot for group of girl/woman having fun together and trust me when I say, for this show, my withdrawal syndrome is much much worst than Ye Won's.

Unnies Slamdunk debut stage

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

First Concert

Assalamualaikum

If you follow me on Instagram, you would have known that I ended 2016 with Akdong Musician's concert...my first concert, in history!! and I am glad that I did it with them, the one and only, super talented Akdong Musician....ok to be honest, I've always thought that my first would be Bigbang but life doesn't always go your way so I live with what I can get....not that these Akdong sibling is not good, in fact, I am a huge fan of their voice and songs but you know, nothing compares to Bigbang....this right here, is unconditional love :P

However, as much as I love any person/group, I don't love them enough to spend hundreds of ringgit just for a concert. Unless if I have a lot of money to the point where I have extras after buying all the things I need and want, then I'll start going to concert. For now, it's always a battle between saving for travel and going to concert. Travel always wins! I guess I really do love myself the most in this whole wide world. :P

So how come this cheapskate girl got to go to a concert, and not just anyone, Akdong Musician's concert you ask, because it's free!!! How I get it is a long story but the point is it is free!!! I can finally go to a concert....wehoooooo!

The minute I walk in, I have an aha moment. I finally understood why people insist on going to this kind of event when they can just watch it comfortably through live stream or youtube or buy a cd or something. I have a friend, Nadia, who's a big fan of Bigbang, she went to every single one of Bigbang's concerts. You know how concerts would normally be held for around 2 or 3 days in a venue..This friend of mine, what she did is, she went to all of them! all! so when I say she went to every single one I am not exaggerating. However, now I get it, I get why she's so obsess with it.

The overall experience is just so overwhelming. It was a standing concert so everything was set up in a cool way which I would love if I am standing right in front of the stage but since ours were free, we're at the faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar end...this didn't seems to bother 174.5cm Farid but me, haihhhhh I jengket a lot that day but anything for Akdong Musician is worth it.:P if you know Akdong Musician really well, their vocal is no joke. There were moments where I caught myself thinking "this can't be live...nobody can be this good," but they do, they are really that good.....and as a bonus, they also sang covers of other YG's artist song and surprise surprise, that includes Taeyang's Eyes Nose Lips! I am one enthusiastic happy fan that night. I don't even care that Farid was behind me, gazing disapprovingly.

This is the only picture I managed to capture after busily dancing here and there...How did people managed to insta story their concerts is still a mystery to me. How can you do that in between of having fun?

Btw, guess who I met at the concert? Nadia! (no surprise there)

and oh, I learnt something new about my mother that day. My mom, she knows a lot more than I think she is. While we were leaving, we just told her we're going to a Korean singer's concert we didn't tell her who because I don't think she knows any to begin with. Once we reached home, she asked....

Emak: Kumpulan mana?

Me: Bukan kumpulan mana-mana pun. Diorang dua orang adik beradik. Sorang laki sorang perempuan..

Emak: Oh yang ni yang masuk pertandingan nyanyi nyanyi tu kan! Yang sorang tu asyik pakai spec besar tu kan (she's describing Chanhyuk)

Me: *speechless*

Even just now, she asks us who is Kim Tae Hee and Rain. World has evolves guys.

In case you haven't got the chance to come across Akdong Musician,I finish off my post with this Eyes Nose Lips cover by Akdong Musician, enjoy

First Concert

Friday, January 27, 2017

Rambles Part 2

Assalamualaikum

Guys guys...are you reading this? seriously? why? :P Do you notice my new layout? Do you like it? cause I do! a lot! With this layout, I feel like one of those blogger who writes all those informative, carefully-planned fashion/beauty blog! only in my case, minus the informative, carefully-planned part. lol. #agirlcandream oh my gosh I am so happy guys! This gives me motivation to write, a lot! (okay this might not be a good news to you because I mostly ramble so poor you :P )

and oh are you reading this from your phone or laptop? Try reading this from your laptop then you'll understand why I am so happpyyy! Wonder why I didn't buy this template sooner.......everything about it is just so perfect...and it's cheap too. I love that now instead of a long lengthy post, my blog will only display grids of pictures from those posts and if you wish to read more, you'll click the read more button...though this becomes a problem for posts without picture but I am in the midst of putting pictures on each post so this problem will go away.

why am I talking too much now? ermmm. see what I told you, when I'm happy I ramble!

Since I am in the mood already, let's talk.

First, about Big Bang latest release. After I listened to Last Dance, it finally hit me, with the members military enlistment and them being on hiatus, I will not be seeing Big Bang as a whole for probably the next 6 to 8 years. I mean, the last time they were on hiatus, I couldn't see Daesung for around 4 years! sobs sobs. How am I supposed to live without them? #overdramatic but seriously how? The good news is, I might take a break from this K-pop fandom world (yeay to more useful activities) but the bad news is, how do you justify 34 year old woman probably with small kids going to a K-idol concert holding concert light stick?

Secondly, on recent Running Man issue. seriously PD? May I ask under what state of mind you're in when you made that decision? I am seriously asking as I want serious answer because anyhow I think, that seems to be the worst decision ever. Who thinks it's the best idea to break up a group of people whose been repeatedly call each other family and 7012 (7 forever) and insert Kang Ho Dong in the equation? haih.... honestly, I am partly glad that all the Running Man members decided to leave, this prove their loyalty and gives us assurance that all those family talks weren't bluff. This is Shinhwa all over again! However, I am partly sad too that this show, the show that I grew up with, is coming to an end. I'll write more about this later.

Thirdly, if I were as passionate as I am about TV shows and K-idols towards things that matter, good things, things that make the world a slightly better place to stay, I wouldn't be as ashamed as I am now towards people in Aleppo. While my biggest worry is the end of my K-idols and TV shows, someone, at the other side of the world, is fighting for life. While I consider myself not having a life since I am too busy with work, think about someone who's life revolves around surviving really tough situations. Makes your problems look like a microorganism right? Anyway, 

no matter how hopeless if feels, never give up making duá.

Rambles Part 2

Friday, December 16, 2016

#notgoodbyebuttillnexttime

Assalamualaikum



Nvmd the music video, the song though, haih....just when I thought Bigbang can do no more damage to my emotional self T____________T

English translation
(not exact but this is the best there is on the web)
credit to: Kpopviral

A love I thought would be eternal
Drew to a close
And even all the many friends I had
Are leaving me
I’ve gotten older so I
Guess I become an adult
Why am I so anxious

Again today, people
Stay in the past
The world goes on just fine
Without me
I’m still young so I
Guess I’m still immature
Why am I so stupid

When I used to be happy
Despite having nothing
It seems like only yesterday
Yeah, I think I’ve come
Too far, I
Can’t remember

Everything is a first so I’m clumsy
And I’m excited
Memories of the past
Still feel like a dream, and I
Don’t know where I’m going now

I will sing this song
And I will return to you
If I can see
Your beautiful self again
I will listen to this song with you
And dance for the last time
Remember this moment
Forever if you must
Just one last dance

I’m becoming a faint light
And go among the stars
You also become a star
And you wave at me
Do I look lonely
Because I’m alone
Why does it make me cry

When I used to be happy
Despite having nothing
Seems like only yesterday
Yeah, I think I’ve come too far, I
Can’t remember

Everything is a first so I’m clumsy
And I’m excited
Memories of the past
Still feel like a dream, and I
Don’t know where I’m going now

I will sing this song
And I will return to you
If I can see
Your beautiful self again
I will listen to this song with you
And dance for the last time
Remember this moment
Forever if you must
Just one last dance

Music keeps on playing and
Give me a chance
I am here waiting for you
Please just once
I promise you
It won’t be long

I will sing this song
I will sing this song
And I will return to you
If I can see
Your beautiful self again
I will listen to this song with you
And dance for the last time
Remember this moment
Forever if you must
Just one last dance

Yesterday night when I
Held hands with you and danced
With your radiantly glowing and
Beautiful One last smile
Red orange yellow green
An ecstasy I can’t know
It doesn’t go with the world
That I used to see and feel

Yesterday night when I
Held hands with you and danced
With your radiantly glowing and
Beautiful One last smile
Red orange yellow green
An ecstasy I can’t know
It doesn’t go with the world
That I used to see and feel

#notgoodbyebuttillnexttime

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

SPOTIFY PREMIUM

Assalamualaikum

"Ada lagi ke orang guna prepaid sekarang ni?"

Ada.

Me.

And this has been a running joke among my friends and I. They are of the opinion that I am losing money if I keep stubbornly use prepaid because their postpaid plans are oh so economical, so they claim but neh, it's okay. I'm happy with where I am currently. However, I am not totally out in the wild living in dark ages. I sign up for monthly prepaid data plan and you know what comes with Hotlink/Maxis data plan, Spotify Premium!!!! 😜 Honestly, if I were to sign up for a postpaid plan, I definitely will not go for Maxis. My personal opinion, they're more expensive than others.

Change telco = no Spotify premium

something that I am not keen to jump on. That's my sole pride of using Hotlink because Yonder? What's that? hehe. The other day, Ayu connected her Spotify's playlist to her car audio, I accidentally jump songs while trying to adjust the volume and I was like

"Eh kenapa tak boleh patah balik ni?"

"Spotify mana boleh patah balik,"

"Eh boleh la...kite punya boleh je,"

"Mana bolehhhh,"

"Oh sorry. Mine's premium,"

one more

"Eh ko dengar tak iklan xxxx dekat Spotify? Scary doh "

"Eh tak pernah dengar pun "

"Ada laaaa. alaaah iklan yg *insert commercial imitation*"

"Oh sorry. Mine's premium,""

and now Hotlink terminated their free Spotify Premium promotion.

hahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahaha

Padan muka berlagak lagi. I never learn. Bukan dah kata banyak kali ke jangan berlagak. T________T

SPOTIFY PREMIUM

Friday, November 25, 2016

WORK PLAYLIST: BEAST BREATH

Assalamualaikum

I hardly listen to K-pop songs nowadays, so one fine day, I was like okay let's listen to 2AM today and I did. I left youtube on autoplay. It brought me around from 2AM, 2PM, Super Junior (skipped this one) till Beast...

if you're familiar with Beast, their older songs always have catchy repetitive words for their chorus ie. "Everyday I shock shock" or "Fiction fiction" or in this case, "Breath in, breath out, huh hah huh hah". It's very catchy!

I literally breath in breath out every freaking time! Imagine me in my cubicle doing huh hah huh hah. ugly. I forwarded this to my colleague and check whether she breath or not. She did not. pffffttttt. purposely make me the odd one here.

-____________-

Go and try guys

WORK PLAYLIST: BEAST BREATH

Sunday, August 21, 2016

If you love someone, tell them

Assalamualaikum

*Update on the pink guitar*

Today I scan the shop again. I want to see who fill the vacancy left by my pink guitar. It's an ugly purple guitar. Yucks!

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As I am writing this, SNSD's Lion Heart live broadcast for Music Bank is playing on KBS. OMG! What did I just watch? Is that even SNSD? That was bad, girls. Really really bad. I am not even a fan but I pity those girls.

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"If you love someone, tell them,"

Simple right? I wonder what's so hard about it. I am seriously wondering. oh btw, I am talking about 'love' here, not 'like'.

Like

It's a crush. It comes and goes very easily. For me, my crush changes depending on which drama I'm currently watching. Haha. Seriously, if a drama is good, my withdrawal syndrome can go on for nearly a month! and since it comes and goes very easily, there is really no need to let the person know that you have a crush on that person. I mean, what if you confess your feeling today, then tomorrow you don't like that person anymore otoke? So, in case of "like", it's better to keep it to yourself (or with your bestfriend), it's more beautiful that way.

She called me straight away. It was GD. :') (Oh in case you're wondering, yes, I got an earful from Ayu that day)

Love

This is hard to explain. Different people love differently. I guess you'll only know it when you feel it. It's very similar to "like", but much more. From what I learn from K-dramas (I have no experience, remember?), if you love someone, you'd want that person to always be around. Somewhere near you.

That's why I don't even understand the logic of "Let's not Fall in Love". Doesn't it hurt to deny your feeling when you obviously love that person to death? Why do we fear confession anyway? To tell you the truth, I once believe "perigi" can't look for "timba". but after a while, I wonder, then only guys can choose? So unfair. What if a girl really likes a guy, she's supposed to let it go, just like that?I don't think God is that cruel. It was a Malay idiom, not a hadith. We have Siti Khadijah as a perfect example.

Rejection? It hurts, for a while. After that, meeeehhhh. At least, you can move on with your life knowing you tried. It was never meant to be. There's no more "What if?" to think about. Isn't this a more courageous way to live?

Strive for what you want! yes you, my dear friend who-will-hit-me-if-I-mention-your-name-here. Good Luck!

(P/S: I've written this long just for you, if you still can't find the courage I can't help you anymore :) )

If you love someone, tell them

Sunday, September 13, 2015

Sarang hajimarayo

Assalamualaikum.

Blue has been my ringtone for like 3 to 4 years already.

So when YG released news about MADE, I vow to myself that I WILL change my ringtone this year.

but tell me, 

how can you choose only ONE from 8 awesome songs??!!!

#rambangmata

I was in big dilemma until, allkpop comes out with this poll.

Thank you thank you!!!

so the WINNER is..............

**drum rolls**

well I am indeed, to quote allkpop "a sweet person with an innocent view on love".

hehe.

Besides that, I think there's something wrong with the description. "Defenseless when it comes to heartache"? I thought this song is all about people not wanting to fall in love although they really really like that other person just because they are scared of getting hurt? no? eh oh ok. scratch that. didn't read the bubble wrap part properly so allkpop is right. :D

Anyways, I do think that this song represents me the most. Hello, can anyone has more trust issue that me? :)

In case you haven't read, this is the english translation credit to popgasa

Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet 

Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry 

Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes 

But I really mean it when I say I like you 

Don’t ask me anything 

I can’t give you an answer 

We’re so happy as we are right now 

Don’t try to have me 

Let’s just stay like this 

You’re making it more painful, why? 

 Goodbyes after our frequent meet-ups 

Repetition of broken hearts 

I can’t find a purpose in these foolish feelings 

A mistake with the mask of love 

All the feelings are the same now 

But in this moment, I want you to stay 

 Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet 

Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry 

Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes 

But I really mean it when I say I like you 

 Don’t smile at me 

If I get attached to you, I’ll get sad 

I’m afraid that pretty smile will turn into tears 

 Don’t try to trap us 

In the word, love 

Because it’s a greed that can’t be filled 

 At first, it was half excitement, half worries 

But in the end, it became an obligation, trial and error 

Day by day, I get nervous, your innocence is too much pressure on me 

But tonight, I want you to stay 

 Don’t expect too much from me 

I don’t wanna lose you either 

Before things get too deep, before you get hurt 

Don’t trust me 

 You’re always like that 

Selfish bastard 

 Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet 

Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry 

Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes 

But I really mean it when I say I like you

Sarang hajimarayo

Friday, August 7, 2015

A

Assalamualaikum

Have you watch We like 2 party?

I love it a lot. Yes, the song is not BB's biggest release (they had better), but the video clip is among my favourite of all time. 

I can't help but agree with this one comment from youtube.

"The guys I see in this MV is not GD, TOP, Taeyang, Daesung and Seungri. They are Kwon Jiyoung, Choi Seunghyun, Dong Yongbae, Kang Daesung and Lee Seunghyun."

so on point. for the first time ever, they are actually human in their MV. They're showing who they really are, which is the best version of themselves that I love.

Cheapest MV ever but the best so far.

P/S: people who don't know K-POP and BB might not understand what's the fuss but oh well, I am a proud V.I.P. and I want to brag about it. :D

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If you realise, I write a lot of k-pop stuff lately. It's because I finally comes to term with it. I am no longer ashamed by it (yeah used too) and I no longer need saving from it. hehe. this is actually a joke between me and Ayu where if possible, we want to find someone who is pure from K-related stuff and have him save us from this K-world.

but I think now, at least for me, it's a little too late for that. Just see my Ipod, 80% of the songs are Korean songs. still think I can be save?

A

Sunday, June 7, 2015

Deep or Fun?

Assalamualaikum

What you say? Labour Day? What is that? Is it food?

booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

What makes it worse,

#LOSER come out today.

yup, hearing I'm a loser, oetori ~ on repeat does not make it any better. How did they know?? How did they know I'm feeling like a loser and loner today? Sssshhhh Bigbang, do you stalk me?

*someone please call mental hospital. This woman has gone cray cray!!*

It is my favourite of the two. The melody and lyric, so on point. Going straight to my Bad Day playlist. :)

Sincerely,

The girl who choose Love Dust over Fantastic Baby

Deep or Fun?

Friday, May 1, 2015

Jeongshin charyeo

Assalamualaikum.

The other day, I have the best dream of my life!

Something that I really really want was just about to happen (it feels real too!), and when I am all glee with happiness,

BAAAMMMM

something hard felt on my cheek.

DIK YAH SLAPPED ME IN HER SLEEP!!! REAL HARD!!!

isssshhh dream killer betul.

It's not her fault, she was sleeping but I swear, due to the shock, I almost slapped her back out of anger =P 

I don't normally care about dreams and their meaning but this time, since it is something that I really really want, I wonder (it's been a week already!) the meaning it carries.

Ayu read somewhere that our dreams is the opposite of what happen in real life. Since I didn't get what I want in my dream, I'll get it in the real world.

or

It's actually Allah's way to remind me to pull myself together..jeongshin charyeo! It's not happening now and it's not going to happen, ever! So He slapped me........ through Dik Yah.

Is it?

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I am happy that SHINHWA is finally releasing their new comeback and are working together again, as a group. As a fan, I have to say, you guys work best as a team, not individually (sorry Eric, I'm still ill with my second lead syndrome towards Ha Jin). Now, can we resume Shinhwa Broadcast please........ =)

Jeongshin charyeo

Sunday, March 8, 2015