Rambles Part 2

Assalamualaikum

Guys guys...are you reading this? seriously? why? :P Do you notice my new layout? Do you like it? cause I do! a lot! With this layout, I feel like one of those blogger who writes all those informative, carefully-planned fashion/beauty blog! only in my case, minus the informative, carefully-planned part. lol. #agirlcandream oh my gosh I am so happy guys! This gives me motivation to write, a lot! (okay this might not be a good news to you because I mostly ramble so poor you :P )

and oh are you reading this from your phone or laptop? Try reading this from your laptop then you'll understand why I am so happpyyy! Wonder why I didn't buy this template sooner.......everything about it is just so perfect...and it's cheap too. I love that now instead of a long lengthy post, my blog will only display grids of pictures from those posts and if you wish to read more, you'll click the read more button...though this becomes a problem for posts without picture but I am in the midst of putting pictures on each post so this problem will go away.

why am I talking too much now? ermmm. see what I told you, when I'm happy I ramble!

Since I am in the mood already, let's talk.

First, about Big Bang latest release. After I listened to Last Dance, it finally hit me, with the members military enlistment and them being on hiatus, I will not be seeing Big Bang as a whole for probably the next 6 to 8 years. I mean, the last time they were on hiatus, I couldn't see Daesung for around 4 years! sobs sobs. How am I supposed to live without them? #overdramatic but seriously how? The good news is, I might take a break from this K-pop fandom world (yeay to more useful activities) but the bad news is, how do you justify 34 year old woman probably with small kids going to a K-idol concert holding concert light stick?

Secondly, on recent Running Man issue. seriously PD? May I ask under what state of mind you're in when you made that decision? I am seriously asking as I want serious answer because anyhow I think, that seems to be the worst decision ever. Who thinks it's the best idea to break up a group of people whose been repeatedly call each other family and 7012 (7 forever) and insert Kang Ho Dong in the equation? haih.... honestly, I am partly glad that all the Running Man members decided to leave, this prove their loyalty and gives us assurance that all those family talks weren't bluff. This is Shinhwa all over again! However, I am partly sad too that this show, the show that I grew up with, is coming to an end. I'll write more about this later.

Thirdly, if I were as passionate as I am about TV shows and K-idols towards things that matter, good things, things that make the world a slightly better place to stay, I wouldn't be as ashamed as I am now towards people in Aleppo. While my biggest worry is the end of my K-idols and TV shows, someone, at the other side of the world, is fighting for life. While I consider myself not having a life since I am too busy with work, think about someone who's life revolves around surviving really tough situations. Makes your problems look like a microorganism right? Anyway, 

no matter how hopeless if feels, never give up making duá.

Rambles Part 2

Friday, December 16, 2016

#notgoodbyebuttillnexttime

Assalamualaikum



Nvmd the music video, the song though, haih....just when I thought Bigbang can do no more damage to my emotional self T____________T

English translation
(not exact but this is the best there is on the web)
credit to: Kpopviral

A love I thought would be eternal
Drew to a close
And even all the many friends I had
Are leaving me
I’ve gotten older so I
Guess I become an adult
Why am I so anxious

Again today, people
Stay in the past
The world goes on just fine
Without me
I’m still young so I
Guess I’m still immature
Why am I so stupid

When I used to be happy
Despite having nothing
It seems like only yesterday
Yeah, I think I’ve come
Too far, I
Can’t remember

Everything is a first so I’m clumsy
And I’m excited
Memories of the past
Still feel like a dream, and I
Don’t know where I’m going now

I will sing this song
And I will return to you
If I can see
Your beautiful self again
I will listen to this song with you
And dance for the last time
Remember this moment
Forever if you must
Just one last dance

I’m becoming a faint light
And go among the stars
You also become a star
And you wave at me
Do I look lonely
Because I’m alone
Why does it make me cry

When I used to be happy
Despite having nothing
Seems like only yesterday
Yeah, I think I’ve come too far, I
Can’t remember

Everything is a first so I’m clumsy
And I’m excited
Memories of the past
Still feel like a dream, and I
Don’t know where I’m going now

I will sing this song
And I will return to you
If I can see
Your beautiful self again
I will listen to this song with you
And dance for the last time
Remember this moment
Forever if you must
Just one last dance

Music keeps on playing and
Give me a chance
I am here waiting for you
Please just once
I promise you
It won’t be long

I will sing this song
I will sing this song
And I will return to you
If I can see
Your beautiful self again
I will listen to this song with you
And dance for the last time
Remember this moment
Forever if you must
Just one last dance

Yesterday night when I
Held hands with you and danced
With your radiantly glowing and
Beautiful One last smile
Red orange yellow green
An ecstasy I can’t know
It doesn’t go with the world
That I used to see and feel

Yesterday night when I
Held hands with you and danced
With your radiantly glowing and
Beautiful One last smile
Red orange yellow green
An ecstasy I can’t know
It doesn’t go with the world
That I used to see and feel

#notgoodbyebuttillnexttime

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

If you love someone, tell them

Assalamualaikum

*Update on the pink guitar*

Today I scan the shop again. I want to see who fill the vacancy left by my pink guitar. It's an ugly purple guitar. Yucks!

***

As I am writing this, SNSD's Lion Heart live broadcast for Music Bank is playing on KBS. OMG! What did I just watch? Is that even SNSD? That was bad, girls. Really really bad. I am not even a fan but I pity those girls.

***

"If you love someone, tell them,"

Simple right? I wonder what's so hard about it. I am seriously wondering. oh btw, I am talking about 'love' here, not 'like'.

Like

It's a crush. It comes and goes very easily. For me, my crush changes depending on which drama I'm currently watching. Haha. Seriously, if a drama is good, my withdrawal syndrome can go on for nearly a month! and since it comes and goes very easily, there is really no need to let the person know that you have a crush on that person. I mean, what if you confess your feeling today, then tomorrow you don't like that person anymore otoke? So, in case of "like", it's better to keep it to yourself (or with your bestfriend), it's more beautiful that way.

She called me straight away. It was GD. :') (Oh in case you're wondering, yes, I got an earful from Ayu that day)

Love

This is hard to explain. Different people love differently. I guess you'll only know it when you feel it. It's very similar to "like", but much more. From what I learn from K-dramas (I have no experience, remember?), if you love someone, you'd want that person to always be around. Somewhere near you.

That's why I don't even understand the logic of "Let's not Fall in Love". Doesn't it hurt to deny your feeling when you obviously love that person to death? Why do we fear confession anyway? To tell you the truth, I once believe "perigi" can't look for "timba". but after a while, I wonder, then only guys can choose? So unfair. What if a girl really likes a guy, she's supposed to let it go, just like that?I don't think God is that cruel. It was a Malay idiom, not a hadith. We have Siti Khadijah as a perfect example.

Rejection? It hurts, for a while. After that, meeeehhhh. At least, you can move on with your life knowing you tried. It was never meant to be. There's no more "What if?" to think about. Isn't this a more courageous way to live?

Strive for what you want! yes you, my dear friend who-will-hit-me-if-I-mention-your-name-here. Good Luck!

(P/S: I've written this long just for you, if you still can't find the courage I can't help you anymore :) )

If you love someone, tell them

Sunday, September 13, 2015

Sarang hajimarayo

Assalamualaikum.

Blue has been my ringtone for like 3 to 4 years already.

So when YG released news about MADE, I vow to myself that I WILL change my ringtone this year.

but tell me, 

how can you choose only ONE from 8 awesome songs??!!!

#rambangmata

I was in big dilemma until, allkpop comes out with this poll.

Thank you thank you!!!

so the WINNER is..............

**drum rolls**

well I am indeed, to quote allkpop "a sweet person with an innocent view on love".

hehe.

Besides that, I think there's something wrong with the description. "Defenseless when it comes to heartache"? I thought this song is all about people not wanting to fall in love although they really really like that other person just because they are scared of getting hurt? no? eh oh ok. scratch that. didn't read the bubble wrap part properly so allkpop is right. :D

Anyways, I do think that this song represents me the most. Hello, can anyone has more trust issue that me? :)

In case you haven't read, this is the english translation credit to popgasa

Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet 

Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry 

Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes 

But I really mean it when I say I like you 

Don’t ask me anything 

I can’t give you an answer 

We’re so happy as we are right now 

Don’t try to have me 

Let’s just stay like this 

You’re making it more painful, why? 

 Goodbyes after our frequent meet-ups 

Repetition of broken hearts 

I can’t find a purpose in these foolish feelings 

A mistake with the mask of love 

All the feelings are the same now 

But in this moment, I want you to stay 

 Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet 

Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry 

Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes 

But I really mean it when I say I like you 

 Don’t smile at me 

If I get attached to you, I’ll get sad 

I’m afraid that pretty smile will turn into tears 

 Don’t try to trap us 

In the word, love 

Because it’s a greed that can’t be filled 

 At first, it was half excitement, half worries 

But in the end, it became an obligation, trial and error 

Day by day, I get nervous, your innocence is too much pressure on me 

But tonight, I want you to stay 

 Don’t expect too much from me 

I don’t wanna lose you either 

Before things get too deep, before you get hurt 

Don’t trust me 

 You’re always like that 

Selfish bastard 

 Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet 

Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry 

Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes 

But I really mean it when I say I like you

Sarang hajimarayo

Friday, August 7, 2015

A

Assalamualaikum

Have you watch We like 2 party?

I love it a lot. Yes, the song is not BB's biggest release (they had better), but the video clip is among my favourite of all time. 

I can't help but agree with this one comment from youtube.

"The guys I see in this MV is not GD, TOP, Taeyang, Daesung and Seungri. They are Kwon Jiyoung, Choi Seunghyun, Dong Yongbae, Kang Daesung and Lee Seunghyun."

so on point. for the first time ever, they are actually human in their MV. They're showing who they really are, which is the best version of themselves that I love.

Cheapest MV ever but the best so far.

P/S: people who don't know K-POP and BB might not understand what's the fuss but oh well, I am a proud V.I.P. and I want to brag about it. :D

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If you realise, I write a lot of k-pop stuff lately. It's because I finally comes to term with it. I am no longer ashamed by it (yeah used too) and I no longer need saving from it. hehe. this is actually a joke between me and Ayu where if possible, we want to find someone who is pure from K-related stuff and have him save us from this K-world.

but I think now, at least for me, it's a little too late for that. Just see my Ipod, 80% of the songs are Korean songs. still think I can be save?

A

Sunday, June 7, 2015

Deep or Fun?

Assalamualaikum

What you say? Labour Day? What is that? Is it food?

booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

What makes it worse,

#LOSER come out today.

yup, hearing I'm a loser, oetori ~ on repeat does not make it any better. How did they know?? How did they know I'm feeling like a loser and loner today? Sssshhhh Bigbang, do you stalk me?

*someone please call mental hospital. This woman has gone cray cray!!*

It is my favourite of the two. The melody and lyric, so on point. Going straight to my Bad Day playlist. :)

Sincerely,

The girl who choose Love Dust over Fantastic Baby

Deep or Fun?

Friday, May 1, 2015

'snake has the prettiest smile' - Dorothy Kooson

Assalamualaikum. :)

HI!

As mention here, I had recently started reading and to my surprise, I kinda like it. Ever since ‘Coolhunters’, i’d read five novels. Five are nothing? For someone like me, five are impressive. That 5, make me a reader again. I am not that brainless, ignorant girl anymore.

This is the 3rd novel I read. And I don’t like the main character. I will never like someone like him. A husband who thinks it’s ok to cheat as long as it meant nothing. A husband who thinks it’s ok to cheat because his wife wasn’t as cheerful, as beautiful, as she used to be. A husband who thinks it’s ok to cheat because things weren’t the same as before they had children. A husband who regrets marrying you, when he is the one who begs you to marry him in the first place. And above all, a husband who thinks his wife is making a big deal about him cheating when it meant nothing. One quick question, how would you feel if your wife cheats on you? Would you say ‘it’s ok. No big deal’?

This is the latest novel I read. And it touches me the most. Before, when I was watching Life Unexpected, I do not understand why Cate and Baze freak out when Lux were dating her teacher. He’s hot kot! Ermmm errmm. And kind. there’s nothing wrong! He loves her, she loves him. Couldn’t they just be lover?

Then I read this book. And I was like woooooaaaa scary. It gives me a clear cut answer as why, when an adult, ‘did it’ with an underage girl, it’s considered rape, even though the girl agrees to it. Because girls are vulnerable. Easily manipulated. Virgin. And grown up man have lots of experience. They know who to pick.

One important thing I learn from this book is I need to talk to someone. About everything. No matter how shameful it is. And then, I need to listen to their advice. I MUST. Bak kata orang tua-tua ‘CINTA ITU BUTA’ . so any judgment I made during the period cannot be trusted. Because I’ve been blinded. Blinded by love.

Besides, ever heard Zee Avi’s ‘no wonder lah my friends pun tak suka you’.

And not all good looking guys are good guys. NOT ALL. Definitely not the sweet talker.

I want to talk more about this book but it gives me goose bump just thinking about it. You got to read it yourself. It’s about how a good looking teacher, raped and abused two beautiful young girls. You must read it. It’s worth it.

Ayu laughed at me when I told her I was reading. told ya they won't believe me. 

p/s : Big Bang’s comeback is on the way! :) and I saw one fancam where a fangirl pushed T.O.P. , just to give Daesung a letter. Fans are saying she’s stupid. How could she pushed T.O.P., the HANDSOME T.O.P. , the CHARISMATIC T.O.P. , for Daesung. I feel you girl. I might do the same thing. Not that I have anything against T.O.P., I like his voice, he is probably the best rapper I’ve ever heard, but I like funnier one better. And I’m bias when it comes to someone with big, amazing voice. Plus, I’m loyal to all F.O. season 1 cast :D

'snake has the prettiest smile' - Dorothy Kooson

Monday, February 13, 2012

I'm so sorry but I LOVE YOU

Assalamualaikum. :)

HI!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA!

Raya I tahun ni sangat sangat plain. selain daripada emak punya signature dish SOTO, yang lain semuanya sama je macam cuti biasa. I masih lagi bangun lambat, tengah hari baru mandi, online sepanjang hari. tapi I still suka.

hey Ilyas ni bila orang tu dah mati baru sibuk nak menyesal sayang lebih-lebih.

sorry selingan sekejap.

ok habis dah Soffiya. Bagus.

BIG BANG WON THE WORLDWIDE ACT. EMA tuuuuu. EUROPE! EUROPE!

kalau boleh sebenarnya I nak pergi retweet semua tweet psl BIG BANG dekat MTV award tapi nnt habis ter spammed orang lain, semua unfollow @athirahfauzi.

tweet yg paling i suka,

The awkward moment when friends told me that I'm Kpop fans and I reply them "#BIGBANG ARE NOT THAT KIND OF KPOP"

and Daesung was smiling. brightly! good for u. :))

I'm so sorry but I LOVE YOU

Tuesday, November 8, 2011